Just feeling down these days... not enough time to do all that I want.... lacking motivation and energy to do what I need to do.... feeling... down.... do I still have the winter blahs?  I really need a vacation to get away from all this stress... from all this monotony.... from home.... to get a breath of fresh air... some culture... see new sights and meet new people.... not to say that home, my family and friends are not great... but... i just feel like I need a change of environment to just freshen up and to lift my spirits... to be excited about life again....

Maybe it's also due to all this negative news around me lately....people's family members/friends either sick, not doing well, got in an accident... or worse... deceased.  Seems like people are getting older... getting sicker...leaving this world.... very sad and depressing....

I need something to freshen me up... to remind me that life is not all about this... to focus on the good.. the happiness in this world....

I feel that little kids...so innocent and naive... untainted by this world... so happy with simple, little things in life.... they remind me of how wonderful this world can be and all the joys that God has provided us.... but *sigh* I'm an adult... and knowing what I know.... it is not always such a happy place for me... at least for the moment. 

Am I being too selfish?  There are so many people in this world who do not have the luxury of worrying or being down about the things in my life... they worry about where to sleep that night... or if they'll eat at all for the next few days... or if their kid will make it through the night... so many out there who are fighting to survive... and I am here feeling down about myself and how blah my comfortable life is.... am I being too selfish?

I pray for those who are sick... I pray for those who need comfort and hope.... I pray for those who are scared, hungry, searching.... I pray that they will seek Him and that He will provide them with what they need... physically, mentally, emotionally... and most of all... spiritually. 

Snow snow snow.  Blah!  Just spent over an hour shoveling my driveway full of snow... lots of it.  Darn thing is so beautiful when you look at it but when you got to shovel it, it's not so appealing anymore :p  There goes my morning on my study day.

So thinking about moving within the next few years.  Heard Seattle is nice.  Thoughts?  I should go visit it.

Gearing up for a trip to HK and Japan.  Trying to find some deals on flights/hotels.  Anyone have any advice/hookups? 

Man, seems like I've had the winter blues lately.  And it's not just me.  People at work, my friends... everyone.  Must be the weather.  However, despite the winter blues, everyone seems to be working hard/ studying hard, etc.  I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm doing the same but there just seems to be some lack of motivation with me nowadays.  Just that life is not fun... work/study is too daunting of a task.... there just seems to be too much to do and I just don't have the energy or motivation to do the things that I gotta do.  *sigh*  Winter blues.  Maybe when the weather is nicer, I'll feel better.  I need a vacation soon.

So lots of people getting engaged/married this year.  YEAH to my newly engaged/soon to be married friends!  Hmm.  Gots me thinking.  27 now.  Getting up there in age.  My future?  Unknown.  That's exciting but sort of scary for a risk averse, planning-crazy girl like me :p

Ah well, enough procrastination.  Back to the wonderful world of pensions. :p

Back from cruise... it was SOO MUCH FUN!  I don't want to be back.  Read Ken's entry on what we did and links for pictures since him and a few of the guys on the trip are picture freaks.

Crunch time for my exam now.  *sigh*